No remembrance

William Melvin Hicks ( Bill Hicks) died in 94′, the comedian who broke the barrier and pushed into explicit humour, humour that questioned all things and shone a light on the bullshit of corporate America, religion and the idiocy of the human race as a whole. While this man ranted you could see behind his eyes that inside he was sad and that he did truly care about these things after the gigs, after the lights and suits came off. This articulate and great man has been neglected after death and only few remember or recognise his name in a book. I urge all who reads this to follow up on him and watch his “sane man” show.

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His small and plain stone sat forgotten amongst the dry ground and grass, no flowers in the holder.

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Check him out please

-Thoth

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Soul chasm

He left this place as he entered it,
Curled in a foetal position,
Eyes shut, cold and weak
Hid neath’ the sheets behind the
Doorway to his room
His organs lay inanimate, resting under his bones
And his eyes mocked this,
Clung to the inside of their lids

My mother waits by the door,
He hangs on to the banister at the top of the flight
A breathe and his eyes reside near hers…
“He’s dead” he exhaled.
By his bed set she kneels weeping into his hands,
Overwhelmed by the cold hard touch of her man.
How is she to tell her children that their father of strength and prowess
Died like a man of weakness, another man frail ?
Or perhaps that behind closed doors this man,
My father
Died of a broken heart

          – Thoth

Learn to swim- a mini misanthropy overview

Learn to swim

 

Misanthropy itself is a “hatred, disgust and or distrust of mankind as a general rule”. Cynicism is a “general distrust of the motives of other people”. Pessimism (not to be confused with philosophical pessimism) is a “tendency to emphasise the negative and that all that is the worst possible outcome”.

Now many misanthropes tend to be cynical as well however the difference is that misanthropes, as a general rule hate and distrust mankind (which is to say, each member of the human race taken as a collective singular unit). Whereas cynics distrust the motives of others and the actions of others are always based in selfishness. Neither of these views are inherently pessimistic.

The first justification: complacent patriotism

Nothing shows the pathetic ways of our species more than ignorance towards our past and nothing shows that like complacent patriotism does. It’s so common to see people standing behind the cleverly picked colours of their countries flag. They feel a boastful pride about themselves and what they stand for; they honestly feel they are nothing less than the blood of the land itself. I don’t blame patriots unaware of the reality; this usually ends up being younger children who know no better or the working class is hilarious seeming they are the ones who are pissed on by the infrastructure the most.

Most countries in the west warn if being unpatriotic, trying to make out that if you don’t support the troops you might as well be committing treason. If soldiers can raid small villages killing all of those in sight with no idea behind why they are do so then people will do anything at all. Merely cogs in the machine that is the industrial military complex, catching bullets.

The worst of ignorance to the past must be from the patriotic Americans. Any country which carries out the most vast and successful genocide in human history is not a country to love. A believed 80- 114 million red Indians murdered, enslaved and raped. A country built on the enslavement of one race and the genocide of another is not a pure place. People ignore these facts and hide behind the “that’s the past” excuse as if that matters. No reconciliation at all has been attempted. It is unacceptable.

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“If you hate people, you want them all dead”

Yet another misconception is that: “if you hate people, you want them all dead” and, by extension, “that you should kill yourself for your self-hatred/to help rid the human scum/etc.” To begin with, just because a misanthrope hates or is disgusted by mankind, that does not inherently mean that he wants mankind dead. Many misanthropes, such as me, are quite sympathetic. Many misanthropes actually want to help mankind to be something better. Justified misanthropes in particular are more likely to be this way—if man can transcend what it is that the misanthrope finds so disgusting and abhorrent, there will no longer be a need for their misanthropy. The reason I actually share any of my ideas is in the hope that they may help to eventually turn mankind around, much in the same way I hope to be better through my self-loathing. The other half, about killing yourself, is entirely senseless as it were—killing yourself will generally have no genuine effect on the state of mankind. You may not have to deal with what you hate and can’t avoid, but that is not a solution for every misanthrope or the only solution.

One of the reasons I have a tiny spark of hope is because of the theory by Carl Jung, the 46 and 2 theory. According to Jung there are three completely different kinds of humans on earth, meaning that they perceive the one reality in three different ways, interpreted differently. The first kind of human has a chromosome composition of 42+2. They comprise a unity consciousness that does not see anything outside of them as being separate from themselves. To them there is only one energy- one life, one beingness that moves everywhere. Anything that happens anywhere happens within them, as well. They are like cells in the body. They are connected to a single consciousness that moves through all of them. This is (like) the aboriginals in Australia or some remaining African tribes. Then, then is our level, comprising 44+2 chromosomes. We are a disharmonic level of consciousness that is used as a stepping stone from the 42+2 level to the next level, 46+2. These two additional chromosomes are meant to change us. We can either transcend or die. Even though I’m not closed to this idea I am not very deeply invested in believing it.

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“Above the beasts”

Another reason I feel misanthropy is because as humans we put ourselves above all else on this planet. We feel worth of life is based on size, the bigger you are the more quality of life you feel. We crush a spider and feel no remorse or sorrow but if we killed a cat or dog we would feel pulled down with guilt as if the worth of one organism’s life is less than that of another. We put our animals down when they are in pain because we want to free them of their agony but if our human loved ones are in that same agony we find its wrong to free them of their constant pain. This makes out that our loved animals don’t have the worth of our loved people. We are too selfish to let our loved ones pass is ease; we have to wait until the torture overtakes them for our own selfish desires. We place ourselves not only above our former civilizations who could achieve things we couldn’t dream of achieving but every other species. We like them but only to look at. We love having a cute cat or dog for our laps but to most it’s just an ornament that doesn’t feel and has no ability or emotions.
 

Born into this

It’s hard to conclude such a topic as this without speaking for days beforehand about the theme, so many tangents, places to look and things to consider. But in my opinion misanthropy is the most wide eyed way to look at the world. An untamed view of ourselves on this beautiful planet. The lies told to one another about our status and the status of our forefathers and their forefathers. denial about the sickening reality of our species. Mass murder of noble people and rejection of those truly in need of help. Denial of the hidden common sense, the “common sense” that we are the cancer of this planet and its docile species. Time will resume like this and more people like me will tell of these atrocities and like with those who did it before they will change naught. Contaminate your bed, and you will one night suffocate in your waste.

        -Thoth

Changed my mind part 4

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Brief overview of thoughts

Here’s the part where some may run away or delete me i’ll do it in bullet point form because really tonight I am not feeling in the mood to type out long paragraphs.

• I believe any patriotism is just ridiculous and naive. Patriots are always unaware or ignorant to their countries history and their people.

• Everyone is so close to being the same that no one is special. No one on this planet is special and even though are people with strong wisdom they are still just another person like that. No matter how hard you try to be different you are the same no matter what.

• Dubstep is soulless, talentless trash and anyone who designs it not composes it getting called “talented” is just utter bull.

• As a musician the type of person who are decides your instrument. All pianists have very similar social patterns as do all guitarists. They share common strengths and weaknesses.

• That although its absolutely disgusting pedophelia will be legalised within the next twenty years due to them begging for rights since the 80’s using the gay rights as backing. Complacent liberals will soon give in so they don’t seem “closed minded” and eventually it will become the norm.

• So many people secretly disagree with homosexuality but are too scared to seem closed minded so they hide it to fit with the norm the dislike.

• It’s ridiculous that people find euthanasia of animals in pain wrong but not humans. Importance of life should not be based on size, ability to communicate or looks. We are no more than the beasts are. We are beasts.

I know this was a short one but I’m searching for ideas and no one will seem to communicate what the want with me so I just have to guess.

– A tired Thoth

Changed my mind part 4

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Brief overview of thoughts

Here’s the part where some may run away or delete me. I’ll do it in bullet point form because really tonight I am not feeling in the mood to type out long paragraphs.

• I believe any patriotism is just ridiculous and naive. Patriots are always unaware or ignorant to their countries history and their people.

• Everyone is so close to being the same that no one is special. No one on this planet is special and even though there are people with strong wisdom they are still just another person like that. No matter how hard you try to be different you are the same no matter what.

• Dubstep is soulless, talentless trash and anyone who designs it not composes it getting called “talented” is just utter bull.

• As a musician the type of person who you are decides your instrument. All pianists have very similar social patterns as do all guitarists. They share common strengths and weaknesses.

• That although its absolutely disgusting pedophelia will be legalised within the next twenty years due to them begging for rights since the 80’s using the gay rights as backing. Complacent liberals will soon give in so they don’t seem “closed minded” and eventually it will become the norm.

• So many people secretly disagree with homosexuality but are too scared to seem closed minded so they hide it to fit with the norm they dislike.

• it’s ridiculous that people find euthanasia of animals in pain wrong but not humans. Importance of life should not be based on size, ability to communicate or looks. We are no more than the beasts are. We are beasts.

I know this was a short one but I’m searching for ideas and no one will seem to communicate what they want with me so I just have to guess.

– a tired Thoth

Almost biblical dreams

To start with no I am not a religious person, I am an agnostic. I am not an atheist for they are so hypocritical to the point of laughingstock- “how can Christians KNOW god exists with no proof? How ridiculous. I KNOW god doesn’t exist with no proof though but I’m now ridiculous”
But a lot of the dreams I had a a child had a very biblical vibes to them
Babies on the river

Whether this one had something to with baby Moses being in my thoughts or the scene from prince of Egypt of a painting on the wall showing  the Egyptians dropping babies into the crocodile filled waters I’m not sure but this was what it was. It was very vivid at the time, it was basically hundreds upon hundreds of babies wrapped in blankets slowly flowing down a river. They weren’t drowning just floating on top asleep down this slow peaceful river. It was autumn and I was it from birdseye view only in one spot as these newborns were coming in the hundreds in old tightly wrapped blankets. In the morning I told my mother who made me draw what I saw and give it to her. She was convinced it was of meaning, a premonition perhaps.

Horizon on fire

This one I had more than once throughout my childhood and it scared me. It scared me a lot. I had it first when I was around about five years old. I would be on the field in my primary school and suddenly my eyes would latch on the distance and I could see a red strip, dark fire red. People began running as I pointed it out and then I eventually noticed it was a fire. On one whole side of the horizon the sky, trees, grass and crops were been incinerated. Everything in its path was destroyed immediately. Later years I had it again only this time I looked out my window to see it and warned my mother and we tried to drive away but eventually our country was consumed. It was almost like the tornados of fire which is mentioned in the bible which I learned of long afterwards. Part of the scariness of the dream was the imminent knowing my time had come and that running was no use.

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As far as I remember earlier than those dreams I did have nightmares of plagues of birds and insects in the millions. They are bleak now though but the other two are still just as vivid as the day I first had them. Nowadays I anticipate nightmares, I love the adrenaline rush and intelligence of them compared to dreams. By age ten I was pretty used to having nightmares of my family being hurt that it desensitised me to the nightmares and just thought it was typical.

       -Thoth

Freedom has never existed

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While there is a few who think freedom is an illusion thrown upon us from high authority for their security and our content I think really the main culprit is ourselves. The real people lying to us is ourselves, as a species we lie to ourselves about freedom so we feel as if we can do anything if the time comes. This is simply not true and yes we can do a lot of boundary pushing things but only within our rules, law, social guidelines which are never really confirmed but are always there.

Hypothetically imagine you are living on an island by yourself and there is no other person on the whole planet. Then and only then would freedom exist because it doesn’t eclipse another persons idea of true freedom. One mans freedom is another mans prison, what one may think is heaven on earth to another could be hell on earth.

“the condition of not being subject to restrictions, coercion, or control, imposed by another person or society; to choose goals and actions on one’s own initiative”

What some people confuse freedom for is freedom of choice. Being able to choose to do something for yourself to do. While people may have this they won’t have freedom of action. I walk into a room and lie down on the bed and fall asleep, during my sleep unbeknownst to me someone locks the door with a key from the outside and walks away. When I wake up I am locked in a room but I don’t know that, I think that I am free to walk out of the door. So say I sit up in my bed and think, should I go for a walk, nah, I’ll go back to sleep. Is this freedom? I made a decision not to go out of the door but I couldn’t have gone out of the door in the first place. In this case I have freedom of choice but not freedom of will. So I could have chosen to go out of the door, but I would have been unable to.

To the people who say its the government mostly to blame think, can the president of the united states do whatever he wants? Can he walk straight our of the white house into DC into a bar and get drunk? No not even he has freedom of action. He’d be stopped before he reached the front doors because that’s the way things work. Not even the highest of authority has the freedom of action. You have the freedom of choice over what you drink, smoke, eat and watch but if you go outside the menu handed to you and smoke drink or eat what you want that’s not there on the shelf you are going to find yourself in prison once caught. Because really everything they don’t sell themselves is illegal, moonshine, mushrooms, pot etc (this just goes into the whole drug topic though so leave this at the side for now).

I may do a follow up of this if the reception is good. Please comment to give me advice or to inquire.
      
           – Thoth